I loved mathematics when I was young and wanted to be good at it, but I got burnt so many times by teachers who could not explain even if their life depended on it.
Asking an LLM and discovering how different theories belong together and what are genuinely open questions, along with different philosophical interpretations has been a wonderful gift.
I have long accepted that Mathematics is a language where you must go "all in" because for the most parts institutions are fundamentally unable to explain it in an intuitive way. There are people who "just get it" and are blind to the struggle of people who need a different approach in learning it. There's something about the field where a generational survivorship bias has created an environment where math is mostly taught to likeminded people, who then don't see why anybody could not see the difficulties learning it.
I know this is not true everywhere, but the only reason I could finish my studies was because there are some genuinely excellent online lectures on youtube, along with massive support from friends who have already been through the ordeal.
If I had had access to an LLM, I could have actually taught myself from scratch and be more playful in learning it. And no, I am not willing to learn lots of math "for fun", I can think of better "for fun" things that actually help my profession and cater to my actual interests and not just some academic ideal.