it reminds me of playground socialization. the cool kids bully you for a long time and so you socialize with the outcasts. one day you get invited into the cool crowd, minimally welcomed with some reservations, and suddenly you're bullying the outcasts you used to associate with even harder than the cool kids ever did because you think it'll help elevate your status with your new in-group
it's really a gross, childish thing but so so common to people who come into power after having it withheld for so long, at least in some Western societies
Arguing with an indifferent brick wall is not what a fella would consider resilient or emotionally mature behavior. Frankly, any halfway competent bonafide troll would get a kick out of knowing he or she played you into wasting precious time out of your own life.
Do with that what you will. Despite seeing you as just some annoying weirdo committing some petty form of shitting where I eat, I'm just trying to arm you with knowledge that might better your life. In the process of you becoming less miserable, you'll also be less of a detriment to everyone around you.