If you would like your interlocutors to converse with you as a careful and subtle user of English idiom, I suggest that you first master such basics as the usage of articles in phrases like "in good shape", which you have amusingly written as "in a good shape". Otherwise one will be more likely to assume any other quirks of speech to be mere errors of a novice student of this unfortunate tongue.

I don't for a moment believe in any case that any idiosyncratic materialist notion of spirit constitutes a really meaningful belief for you. On the contrary, I will not be unjustified in assuming that the comfort you purport to draw from this sort of superficial surveillance of self (and of any nonconsenting unfortunates who happen to come to your minders' attention) merely represents the fear of death so typical of our technologists today.

I am however truly sorry to see that, for you, sincerely, and also for all of us stuck dealing with the effects of this spiritual disease. You will not be able to define or contextualize away the reality of spirit, nor substitute it with worldly trivia.