Comment by complianceowll | Hacker News Reader

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I'm not considering that you're a rotten person. I'm telling you that as a matter of fact. You're not able to see it and I understand that. One day you're young and full of life; the next, you're a middle-aged man that is bitter.

I wouldn't expect someone who finds themselves in that state to pick up on it.

You mentioned the caricature that it reminds you of. That is a reflection of something that is taking place inside you and baggage that you bring into an interaction that doesn't merit it. If you can't discern that, that is not something I, or anyone else, can help you with.

You mentioned that I wanted compassion from you. The fact that you're so comfortable making that assumption says a lot about the intellectual integrity you have and the lack of honesty you bring to discussions in your life. Nobody was expecting compassion. However, I emphasize once again and my point remains: how you respond to someone's genuine apology speaks volumes about you.

I know that reflection in the mirror is one you will try to deny and rationalize away, but it's one you should reflect on and, who knows, maybe even use as moment in your life that catapults you into change.

You pointed out, almost in "gotcha" fashion that I admit I have been shitty with people -- I have. 100%. The difference between you and I is not that I have been shitty and you haven't. It's that I still have something inside me that compels to own my shitiness and change. You don't. You're comfortable in your rotteness.

You'll block my username only when the truth of my words hurts too much. Otherwise, being the rotten person you are, you will continue to enjoy the back and forth because you get off on the rage.

Anyways, I'm about to go workout and enjoy my day. I am releasing you Cauch!

I'm still not sure what you imagine this conversation will do. What do you think will happen? You know I think you are ridiculous and pathetic, already from the previous conversation. And you're coming back after months to do this strange little dance, it just looks so unhinged. Do you really think this whole conversation will change that, and not in fact reconfirming that my first impression was correct?

I feel that you are trying to convince me that you are very wise by doing more and more unhinged things. I'm not sure why you think this would even work.

As I've said, I'm 100% fine to know that you think I'm rotten. You already insulted me previously, I got the message and I can't care less, so why come back to do it again? Why would you think I will take you seriously now? Are you "trying to save me from myself"? That's not really convincing: coming back to a stranger on the internet after few months for pure altruism, that is not something that a sane person would do (especially as you were pretending that you did not care at all). Instead of "trying to save me from myself", the readers will suspect that you came back because you still have things on your chest, and that this conversation is more for you than for me. That's sad.

This conversation won't change the fact that you like this. Bitter people like having a vehicle they can't get their toxicity out on. That is why you can't help yourself and you continue.

At this point, every single one of your responses is just a reflection of you, not me.

You keep saying you don't care. But you can't help yourself from responding to me every single time.

You do care, Cauch. You care because the toxicity in your bones that you refuse to let go of needs an online enemy you can't direct your toxicity towards.

The point stands: Cauch responds, Cauch cares!

Responding is fun because your answers are entertaining and make me laugh. The fact that I keep putting a coin to see the little monkey dance does not mean that when the little monkey emits some sound I would take it personally.

And I enjoy thinking you get more and more convinced that I care the more I answer. Why would I stop? You are literally giving me reward for answering you.

> You care because the toxicity in your bones that you refuse to let go of needs an online enemy you can't direct your toxicity towards.

I cannot let go so much that I recontacted you out of the blue after weeks. Oh, wait, it was you. "We broke up but my ex is so not over me, it is very annoying. They even said my name and got angry when they saw me stalking them behind the bush, if it's not the proof".

Again, you did not answer: what is your goal here? What do you think you will receive? You know that it will never go further than that, that you will never feel that you've "won", that you will never be really convinced that any of your insults have ever landed. It will end like the last conversation, and it will be as unsatisfying for you.

In fact, even if I say exactly what you want to hear, you will not be satisfied, because you will always have a doubt in the back of your mind that I just said that to fool you to think you've "won".

Whatever rationalization you need to keep responding -- it's all yours Cauch!

The guy who initially accused me of being creepy all of a sudden understands that there's an entertainment component to how I communicate.

You ask me what my goal is. The question is, for someone who keeps saying they don't care -- what is yours?

The good old Cauchenator needs somewhere he can release his anger.

You mention that tried fooling me so that I can think I've won. I apologized to you. Someone who has even the slightest desire of winning doesn't apologize bubs.

Good ole, Cauch. If we ever run into each other, that'll be in an interesting discussion. We're not that far from each other.

> The guy who initially accused me of being creepy all of a sudden understands that there's an entertainment component to how I communicate.

You realise I laugh at you and not with you, right?

For example, the hilarious fact that you try to convince me that I "refuse to let go" when not only you are the one starting talking to me, saying we're in "too deep", saying you want an "unsolicited following" of me, and now wishing to "run into each other" and implying you care enough to be interested to know where I live.

You are really obsessing over me, don't you?

> You ask me what my goal is. The question is, for someone who keeps saying they don't care -- what is yours?

What? My goal for what? For answering? It was literally the content of my previous comment, you pillock.

Your turn to answer now, what was your goal to contact me. Wait, I can do it for you: "because I'm so great that I needed to apologize to you because you are so pathetic and I worry about you and wanted to help by explaining how much you suck". Move on, bud, you are pathetic. Whatever you are looking for, you will never get it. Cut your losses and stop obsessing over me.

> The good old Cauchenator needs somewhere he can release his anger.

And yet you are the one who had the need to talk to me.

> Someone who has even the slightest desire of winning doesn't apologize bubs.

Someone who has even the slightest desire of not looking like an idiot does not pretend that the person he practices an "unsolicited following" over is the one who "cannot let go". Idiots don't always do things that align with their goal.

But, yeah, you know what, if you want to convince me that you did not contact me because I got under your skin in the previous conversation and you are still upset about it, you know what you can do: tell me what is your goal for talking to me.

> If we ever run into each other, that'll be in an interesting discussion. We're not that far from each other.

You would love that, wouldn't you? Obsessing over me much?

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