Forgive me for saying this, but I think you may be drinking too much of the kool-aid.

If some of your projects are monetizable, couldn't you move forward without VC help?

Perhaps related, why do you need to be worth billions of dollars? I feel your visions for what you want your future self to be are highly unrealistic and you're probably setting yourself up for a lot of disappointment and unhappiness.

Sorry for the bluntness, but I think one could be happy on a lot less.