Regarding organized religion, a quote attributed to Diderot [0] goes as follows:

    Le genere humain ne sera heureux et libre que quand on aura étranglé le dernier roi avec les boyaux du dernier prêtre.

Or, in plain English:

    Man will be happy and free only when the last king has been strangled with the entrails of the last priest.

However, I like to complete it with a quote from Voltaire [1]:

    L'univers m'embarrasse, et je ne puis songer - Que cette horloge existe et n'ait point d'horloger

Or, in plain English:

   The universe baffles me, and I cannot conceive - That this clock exists, yet has no clockmaker.

[0] https://www.persee.fr/doc/rde_0769-0886_1991_num_10_1_1097

[1] https://fr.wikisource.org/wiki/Page:Voltaire_-_%C5%92uvres_c...

I know what it's like growing up in a religious atmosphere. Since you've been trained to think inside the box, you realize the box is nonsense. The problem is thinking that the only valid alternative is that there is no creator and everything is just random (the opposite extreme.) Look into other philosophies like advaita vedanta, buddhism, or progressive science like another commenter mentioned about nassim haramein.

As a lifelong atheist and critic of organized religion, I congratulate you on your improved frame of mind.