"Have you ever noticed that everyone who drives slower than you is an idiot, and everyone who drives faster than you is a maniac?"
Though I agree there are some folks who resist change while others who seem to jump into new things without enough care about hard lessons of the past. And sometimes you are the one trying to keep things sane and mitigate risks while majority of your team seem to treat you as a joyless guy who always sees risks and drawbacks.
Having 'innovated and taken risk', juice is rarely worth the squeeze. Watercooler is too crowded and layoffs too arbitrary. A middling job rewards exactly as well. Reliably.
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Said another way: the job needs 2+2, rewards poorly, and I'm too tired for Calculus.
In my case, I really enjoy coding, and making stuff that people use.
Part of the impediments that I have encountered, is other people's attitudes. As long as co-workers and technical peers thought of me as "competition," they would deliberately make it difficult for me to access the stuff I needed to learn.
LLMs have absolutely no fear of me, and gladly give me exactly what I need (sometimes, too much).
Perhaps I could use them for the parts I don't enjoy. Or I could... not.
It's all a wash, I guess is my point. While we're out here working, leagues are idling. I aspire to be more like them.
I have been learning for myself, that's a category of useless. Would've been better spent knitting; therapy for applying the useful 2%.
I guess finding a meaningful life has always been more important to me, than being rewarded in money. I know that makes me a mutant, around these parts, but that's how I roll.
That's great for you. Sarcastic this time. I truly meant well, now I don't care. To be clear: 'shareholders' was a quip at the industry, not you.
Well, you see, life has demanded I trade a certain meaning for value creation. Hence my attitude. There's that complex I told you about. Ghoulishly wanting reciprocation, or day I say, a payoff.
I'd trade half my salary/effort to live in my home town and closer to meaning... yet, I don't. Not an option. Can't avoid RTO forever or pay bills with back-pats.
Nice implication on my life meaning, bro. Sorry, sir. I lower the rim and you dunk. Well played.
Happy (Western) Christmas Eve!
And obligatory: experience and competence may be correlated, but they are not the same.