Thank you for this post. It’s so obvious in hindsight, but I’ve been struggling for the last couple of years with my day job, especially the last while since I’ve been unmedicated.

In office, I listened to music almost my entire career, it’s the only way I got anything done for whatever reason, to the point I almost got fired once when a manager tried to stop me heading out briefly to pick up a replacement set of headphones when mine broke. I threw a literal tantrum almost, all I knew is I had no music, and that it was essential I did so I could continue doing what I was doing.

For some reason however, when I made a transition in the last few years to WFH, I’ve been living this bizzarely very different approach where I sit in almost complete silence all day long, and it’s the most I’ve ever struggled with my…focus for lack of a better word.

I now truly wonder how much this may have to do with this huge struggle I’ve felt to remain engaged or on task. I’m getting my job done, but 90% of my effort is me having to force myself to get it done rather than…just getting it done like I used too.

I suddenly feel very stupid.