I mean this in the nicest way; you don’t need a job that fits your preferences, you need a therapist, maybe some medication, and mostly to stop making excuses.
Seriously, I mean that in a heartfelt way and I’m someone in not much different situation and experience with similar and other alphabet soup of afflictions I could blame and I have blamed. We all have problems, the question is really what you’re doing about them because no one really cares that we have them.