The point is that much of what is generally considered to be "hard wired" is not as immutable as we think. There are many different ways to improve our circumstances and options. I've explored several with good results, and seen others apply different ones with good results.

Given my role here is a moderator, It's not appropriate for me to be giving out health/life advice, and it's always the case that professional mental health treatment should be sought if there's risk of self-harm. But you're welcome to email us at hn@ycombinator.com if you think we may be able to help point you in the right direction.