I recognise myself in many of the things you say. Being good at understanding the entire system very quickly, and keeping the constraints of all the parts in mind simultaneously. Picking up technologies quickly and throwing together MVPs in a few days.

I’m not sure I understand other parts. The spiritual aspect, the lack of output for a week, etc.

The problem is that there’s a million people like you looking for work now. All of them as skilled and knowledge-hungry as the next. You’re adding extra barriers to be hired, instead of removing them. That you have personal objectives about who/what/why you work somewhere is fine. Most people have those.

Anyone your message doesn’t resonate with is going to leave you on seen. That’s a problem.