Working on "wanting to live". It's hard to create desire within oneself when one has experienced intense sorrow.

Been trying the "do the thing, and desire comes after" for many things (baking, piano, skating, ..), but that hasn't really worked. What has seemed to work is connecting with people (crucial that they know how to connect back).

Made a little web app that helped me communicate: https://azriel.im/tears/

(I could just point to the number when I couldn't talk/listen)