Siddhartha
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'A studio version was made for John Peel's BBC Radio 1 show at the Maida Vale Studios on 28 October 1977 and first broadcast soon after on 14 November. It includes a separate section that begins with an abridged session version of the original comprising the first verse, chorus and guitar outro - this part has become known as We Will Rock You (slow). Between the two parts there is a brief reading of Hermann Hesse's novel Siddhartha, used in a BBC Radio documentary. This audio was found on the BBC tapes being reused to record the session and was retained by the band.'
I read it in high school and it was okay. 15 years later I was taking a flight and needed something to read (pre-downloaded video was not quite a thing yet). I was NOT in a good place mentally, and hadn't been for a while. I was depressed and hiding it, suffering in my own head.
I'll be honest: I had a date picked out, and it was coming up.
This was in my library because I had grabbed a handful of free books from somewhere. I beasted the entire thing in 3 hours.
Something about it rung me like a bell. I saw myself in the dark place this character was 2/3rds of the way through the book. Lost, suffering, unfulfilled, failing to rise to his potential, lamenting choices and compromises of my past, looking back and knowing I would be a disappointment to the brilliant young man I used to be.
I can think, I can wait, I can fast.
These became my mantra.
I had the tools I needed. I could find a way out of this hole, I could be patient until the opportunities I needed arrived, and I could endure discomfort and hardship to get there.
I can think, I can wait, I can fast.
I told my wife I needed therapy. I told my therapist I needed meds. I've gotten more than ten years past that date.
I haven't quite found my river yet, but I'm on the road.
... so you should read this book.
Narcissus and Goldmund is my favorite book by Hesse - it's beautifully crafted.
It takes them a short bit to get into it, but by the time Sid is with the Samanas they're into it. Even though they sometimes get lost in some of the revaltory moments about the "self", the plot holds together and is compelling even at this level.
Best of all, the walk away with a couple good ideas worth considering and remember it fondly.
Buddhism seems to be number 1 after atheism which isn’t a religion.
"Buddhism, also known as Buddha Dharma, is an Indian religion"
Having come from a conservative Christian religious background (and finding I was wholly incompatible with it), I avoided anything even remotely resembling religion for most of my 20s.
It wasn’t until my mid 30s that I went down the Buddhism rabbit hole and what I found was entirely unlike what I expected based on my former experience with western religion.
There are also many forms of a Buddhism with varying positions e.g. Zen Buddhism is explicitly non-religious, tapping into the core insights without asking the practitioner to believe anything.
However, I believe Zen Buddhism is one of the more ritualistic versions, as opposed to 'Secular Buddhism', which removes the spiritual aspect for a more personal philosophical take on some of the core principals.
A couple of the principals of Secular Buddhism resonate with me in particular:
- Karma is not some metaphysical storage of actions, but instead just consequences. If you constantly speed everywhere, eventually you'll probably end up with a ticket - Thats your "karma" (consequences) of your own actions you chose to take.
- Rebirth is instead interpreted as the rebirth of the self, in that each living moment you are not the same person you were a moment ago. The idea is that in striving to be a better person, you are 'reborn' as a better version of yourself in each moment which compounds over time. Almost like the "1% rule" where your goal is to be 1% better in some aspect than you were yesterday.
For a book with similar tongue in cheek philosophical take on the theme "religion on a first person account" I recommend "The Gospel According to Jesus Christ" by Jose Saramago.
Years later when I was exploring Buddhism, no Buddhist I met wanted to refer to Buddhism as a religion.
So the mentality seems to be that everything else is "religion" and what "we" have here is something deeper.
Although I can see how calling Christianity a religion implicitly makes it equal to other religions, which Christians might be opposed to, but that doesn't seem like a mainstream point of view.
> Years later when I was exploring Buddhism, no Buddhist I met wanted to refer to Buddhism as a religion.
Having spent hundreds of hours exploring this topic over the last few years, I have to point out that this is because many forms of Buddhism aren't religious at all.
The differences between Christianity and Buddhism in both the underlying philosophical ideas and the manner in which most people practice those ideas could not be more stark.
And as I mentioned in a sibling comment, Zen is a good example of an explicitly non-religious form of Buddhism.
I remember a joke in the book where two rabbis are discussing the issue of god's existence during the supper, at the end, they both agree that god must not exist and then go to sleep. At the next day one rabbi finds the other doing his early prayers and confounded asks him why he is praying if there is no god, to which the other one answers "what does praying has to do with god?".
As to myself I'd say I fit in the first category, having been through Catholic schools and a Jesuit college without the religious aspects really making an impact from a very young age onwards. I may not believe in any gods but I understand why some people do and I mostly like the society built around those ideas, especially when compared to other societies built around other ideas like Islam, Confucianism or Animism. I dislike the negative aspects of organised religion which range from free-ranging paedophile priests in Catholic churches to the "mosques are our barracks, the domes our helmets, the minarets our bayonets and the faithful our soldiers" attitude of the likes of Erdogan just like I dislike the negative aspects of party politics and consider the two to have a lot in common.
Thus without ever reading any of the teachings of the one in the lotus flower, one must rediscover detachment from the hackable self, or be enslaved forever.
Hen came to me since I was known as a reader, and I suggested Siddhartha "but ask your teacher if it's ok". It was.
Few days later I saw my relative and a disgruntled friend. Disgruntled friend had picked War and Peace.
I recently started commuting by subway into work, so I had to pick up a subway book. I had been meaning to read this, so I went to my local book store and grabbed a copy.
It’s a really great book. Such a fascinating story. And short, too. I highly recommend giving it a read. It might synthesize some of your loose connections about Hinduism, Buddhism, and your own place in a chaotic world and what it means to live a happy life.