Imposter syndrome
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I think you nailed it near the end where you remark on the absence of any sort of organized "body" waiting to vet you. It's just individuals. Perhaps individuals with strong connections between themselves, but individuals nonetheless. And importantly, individuals who were once at the same threshold that you're now hesitant to cross.
Of course, there are plenty of things that make every one of us different and qualified in separate respects, but I think that sometimes it can be grounding to recall those moments where those differences all but vanish. Moments of commonality if you will.
I think this quote [0] from a similar post by Scott Hanselman really nails it:
> I think the more you know, the more you realize just how much you don't know. So paradoxically, the deeper down the rabbit hole you go, the more you might tend to fixate on the growing collection of unlearned peripheral concepts that you become conscious of along the way.
It echos my experience of 'success' making imposter syndrome worse.