Fascination is all you need. I find many people have a lot of self-limiting beliefs around math. There’s many reasons for them to develop, but I firmly believe that many people are legitimately interested in mathematics and have the capability despite their beliefs.
Motivation is vaning, you need discipline to actually stick to something and get better at it. But even getting better day-by-day by only a tiny percentage will result in huge gains over long periods.
As long as you can map time to a number line, it's a valid representation. We just happen to have hardware acceleration for 3-dimensions, and the 4th is just completely unintuitive to us.
When it comes to geometry and not just vector spaces, time dimensions have a different definition of distance than do space dimensions. There's a minus in the formula where you would usually have a plus. And this means that shapes in this space behave very differently than what we're after when imagining a hypercube or hypersphere, for example.
We want to think of a 4 dimensional space where all the dimensions are indistinguishable, but the minus sign in the metric distinctly identifies the time dimension. For this reason, physicists typically call this kind of space a 3+1 dimensional space rather than a 4 dimensional one.