Once the tolerance kicks in (1-2 weeks of use) the high becomes mild / nonexistant and it no longer boosts my productivity
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This makes getting started easy enough and hopefully I pick up momentum and engagement as I go.
Idk, it's complicated. I think a lot of the moral handwringing about stimulant use is misguided and it shouldn't be stigmatized. But I'm somewhat biased in that stimulants literally saved my life, after I had been avoiding medication for years prior based on the stigma. I for sure have ADHD though.
Have you talked to a psychiatrist? You may have a serious mental condition that needs treatment, even if it isn't ADHD treated by amphetamine salts. Modafinil, maybe.
From what I understand, ADHD folks do not get the high part, so the addiction risk is not there.
But I am very curious about how people like you describe the effect of these drugs, as it is so foreign to me. What do you even mean by “heavenly”?
Some people can retreat to a mind palace in their head. I have a mind bouncy castle. It’s like confetti in a wind tunnel. Stimulants calm the storm and give me control over my inner thoughts, and mastering oneself is the first step to having any agency in the world. That’s all they are to me.
But a “high”? Never experienced that, other than the psychological high that comes with being high agency.
Maybe, but I wouldn't say serious. Just standard life malaise.
I have talked to a psych - he gave me a concerta prescription after talking for 20 minutes lol. That's the stimulant I'm talking about. It's basically super coffee that lasts all day, and like I said, the high is by far the best part.
- if he's exercising consistently
- if he's eating properly without junk food
- if he's hydrating properly instead of other beverages
- if his overall physical activity has a good baseline
- if he's in a line of work where his interest, competence, and the challenge of the work is a good match.
most people's inability to focus comes down to lack of self-discipline and self-care, or just being in a wrong place, wrong time, or wrong environment.