You're not the only one I'm sure, but sounds like you don't need it. Its major strengths are:

• Bottomless resource of developers with Java experience

• Vast array of existing libraries many of which are enterprise focused

• Managing very large codebases with many contributors is straightforward

• Standard VM that's very solid (decades of development), reasonably fast, and supported on essentially all platforms.

It doesn't have quite the stranglehold (even in Enterprise) that it had in perhaps the early 2000s and it's the archetypical "blub" language, but it's a perfectly reasonable language to choose if you're expecting Enterprise scale and pure performance is less valuable to you than scaling out with large numbers of developers.

I like Rust, but it's Java that puts bread on my table.