I'm so sorry. We all hope for a magic formula, but even with clinical trials, bench-to-bedside takes years.
>> the chimeric compound killed only diffuse large cell B-cell lymphoma cells
>> the chimeric compound killed only diffuse large cell B-cell lymphoma cells
Then it's like, you realise that everything you had imagined over the next 40 - 50 years is suddenly not going to happen anymore, and it just feels so surreal.
Thankfully, a lot of the initial hysteria is gone. But there's definitely a sense of "why me?"
I have a chronic condition and spent years wondering "why me?". Now my thoughts are more like "why not me?" and to try and embrace what life we're lucky to get and live day by day. Godspeed
I myself became Eastern Orthodox about 15 years ago, which has a somewhat different view of death than Western European Christianity (1). There’s also an acceptance that death occurs and that we prepare for it in our hearts, while still believing that death isn’t “natural” state. It’s a dichotomy of beliefs, but helped me accept both the reality of death but a hope for more. I pray and also love the funeral prayer in Orthodox Churches of “may their memory be eternal”. Very beautiful.
I also find the Stoic philosophers (Marcus Arelius, Epictetus) to hold to an acceptance of death and similar views of preparing oneself for it as Orthodox do. They discuss the concept of “memento mori” (2) which plays a big role in Stoic Philosophy. They focus on directing one’s internal emotions to gratitude of time with loved ones and settling anything weighing on your heart, if I understand them.
At the end of the day, both focus on preparing ourselves to realize we can die any moment and really don’t have any “right” to life. That it’s better to view each day as such and to find gratitude and peace with loved ones while you can instead of focusing on ourselves and expectations of life. We can and should feel sad and disappointed but also to not become lost in it.
Apologies for the poor writing. I’m writing on my phone and well it’s a hard topic. My mother passed away last year way too young and there’s always a feeling of loss.
May you find peace friend.
1: https://www.oca.org/orthodoxy/the-orthodox-faith/spiritualit... 2: https://www.stoicsimple.com/stoicism-death-facing-fears-of-m...
But they don't have to! WE care! There IS light in the world, and it is US!”
― Eliezer Yudkowsky, Harry Potter and the Methods of Rationality
We're made of all the same stuff as those stars. We are the universe, and if we care, that means the universe cares as well. When we have the power to do something, that means the universe has the power to do something.