what were you diagnosed with, in the end? I always thought you'd need medications for life, for conditions like this - are you 100% off them?
But from Googling about the medication (Risperidone).
It looks like I had bipolar disorder or schizophrenia.
Yes. I am 100% off meds. It has been about 1½ years now.
I don't hear a single "voice in my head".
Those voices are very different from "thinking" or "talking to yourself".
I am glad I haven't heard them in a long time.
Even had the same experience of checking into the mental ward thinking I was going to be killed, and then just wasn't.
Same age as you, too, born in 93