I've sold all my business/marketing books as well as the laptop I used to code on and I'm left with just over 1000 (GBP). So here's the plan:
I'm buying 1000 lottery tickets for the draw this wednesday.
I'll update this post Wednesday night to let you all know how I got on.
Regardless of the outcome, I hope you'll be okay with yourself (actually I hope that for everybody). There are other things in life besides payoffs.
Maybe if you had posted more on HN you would have had a more successful business career ;) Also, if this is serious and you are going to give up and play the lottery, this irrational decision making may be why you never found your success.
Regardless, success isn't measured in dollars. Once you see that, you'll likely make more money and be more successful.
I'm going to start a teacher training course in September after which I'll hopefully start a career in teaching. Whilst I don't think I'll ever lose the entrepreneurial bug I don't think I'll ever be able to put in as much passion as energy as I have these past few years.
In short, I've peaked, and this is just my idiosyncratic way of saying farewell to that part of my life.
odds of success are probably higher and it would feed your own bug vicariously