Have you ever given any serious consideration to the possibility that the podcasters and youtubers you've been listening to are in fact lying and manipulating their listeners for profit?
When I get invested in a certain belief, I find it useful to ask myself "What would it take for me to change my mind?". It's a helpful tool to catch situations where I've been discounting or ignoring evidence that goes against my belief. If you ask yourself that, and the answer is that nothing would change your mind, then you're not making evidence-based decisions, you're making decisions based on faith or (potentially mis-placed) trust in a person, group or identity.