It’s a lot of things, and it takes a while. EDMR, modified IFS, somatic work, massive amounts of internal reflection and relational work have all contributed - it’s not something I could just buy. I remember 80% of my childhood whereas before I only remembered something like 20% (the nicer parts and a few impactful moments). I remember school, I remember real details of being in my 20s including emotional memory, I remember what it was like to teach myself to code. All of this stuff wasn’t accessible until I started learning about structural dissociation.

Also as an FYI, dissociation can greatly reduce the efficacy of so many other treatments if not detected.

See here for a short primer on this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jWRnewwMO2U

Also if it might help, I'd recommend doing a self assessment for dissociation. The MID-60 is the one that I'd recommend over the DES-II, as it gets much closer into real experiences without as much wiggle room.