What helped you? Traditional psychotropics? Psychedelics?
What helped you? Traditional psychotropics? Psychedelics?
I'm interested in knowing why you're reluctant to try stimulants. what you describe in your OP sounds a lot like the symptoms of ADHD and stimulant medication helps many people with the exact symptoms you list with little to no side effects. why leave that on the table?
I treat my ADHD with stimulants, and I would say there are definitely side-effects, but the side-effects are mostly manageable.
While I do benefit from stimulants, I personally believe the benefits are exaggerated, and apparently the Cochrane Library does not disagree with me:
https://www.cochranelibrary.com/cdsr/doi/10.1002/14651858.CD...
* Ketamine was life changing (for depression symptoms)
* Stimulants help me a lot. The first time I took adderall, I cried, because I had never experienced such a relaxed state of calm or peace. I haven't been able to get any due to the longstanding shortage, and my quality of life has suffered as a result. Other drugs help me to control my focus, but they don't tend to help my memory or emotional regulation much.
* I also take antidepressants that are slightly helpful.
* Diet, exercise, and sunlight make a huge difference.
Felt like Im just damaging my physical health for no good reason
I’d say start your day off with absolutely nothing. Just go outside and go for a walk with no phone. No music. No technology. From the moment you wake up, try a one hour walk like this (map out a route that takes about an hour so you don’t need a clock with you). Let your mind fly, then after the hour is up, write down some notes about your thoughts. Try this for a week.