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I'm Fucked

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Hello,

I'm Fucked. The owner of the appartement I'm in, decided to sell and I have six months to get out, and I did not see it coming.

I got seek three-four years ago, which made me think about transitionning into a new field less complicated for me that the one I was used to, and two years ago I decided to go all-in on becoming a software dev.

After around a year of learning English, computing (DSA, Algos, Big O, design patterns, etc) and some technologies (Git, GitHub, Docker, Angular, Node.js(ExpressFastify), JS/TS, PHP(a bit of symfony), HTML/CSS, SQL/MySQL), I couldn't find a job. Basically, my profile was ok, but I was rejected with "One year of pro exp would have been ok", and the few interviews I got, I was Ok in tests at that point but not strong enough. (Since then, I got better tho')

So I decided to try to get an apprenticeship, maybe it was the way, there is plenty of that there, instead of entry-level, and I entered into a school which was "reputed" (not bullshit study I would say). I got more interviews, crushed tests and design interviews, but I got left out for that much which is .. horrible, because most often I had 4-6 meetings overs a 4-6 weeks, people told me I was in competition with a lot of people but still, tests were good, and then at the last minute, even after two times getting two times accepted .. I got rejected for a reason that I learnt only a few weeks ago; For my age (32) there is not as much money from the state as with people of 30 and less. Incredible from enterprise which gained millions a year. Anyway.

What should I do next ? I need to get a job, to change quickly location, and I'll find it eventually, but I fucking want to work as a Software Dev, I really like it, I even learnt C++ at the side, I want to deeply understand the web, I'm just starting to try to create big things for learning purpose (implementing an event loop, implementing crypt stuf, etc...) and I'm trying to do open source because I want to participate to the world.

What fuck me here, is just the fact that I need to change location, and its horrendous for my familly, and yeah I have a familly, my daughter has health issues, and my wife take care of her and my health issues (when it was big). I'm a failure, I hate myself, I made mistakes yeah, I should have done it differently yeah, and I should have predicted the worst case better .. but fuck, maybe I should have not moved, I'm an optimistic, and I hate it.

Notes: - I have tiny github projects, and that's the reason I got interviews it seems (some told me directly), not big things for sure, but CLI programs with encryption, webserver with self-made auth (cookie/session, encryption myself) and much more, library to scrap and digest data (that I use myself), and few more. - I was open to moving more than an hour out of my home for jobs and such, I don't care about working home, but it would be good sure. - Now, Apprenticeship is not possible it seems - I have a side project, it can get traction and make me money I feel it, but I need time to build it (And I'm lost too here), I've done it partially early last year, but I fucked up (big learning there) about my knowledge of the event-loop and how it handle load, good lessons and put it on the side, I made a mistake here again.

What the fuck should I try to get that job ?

I’m sorry to hear about your experiences. It might not be the nicest thing to hear, but I would recommend getting a job in any field that can support you and your family, and looking for a dev job afterwards. I’ve had trouble finding a job too and that’s what I would do if money was tight.

Thank you very much! Yeah I don't have the choice, I'm dumb to have waited that much, I should have got a job earlier but yeah I need to!!

Finding a software job is difficult, I understand that there is ton of applicant, that the overall level is low and that my profile is not easy but I was so close with three interviews .. and nope. haha

Thank you very much.

Update: Found a job for the moment that eventually would help me to find something to locate to!!

Reporting my transition to a year, stabilizing my familly and then let's go baby.

Sounds like you've been unlucky. A couple of things I'd suggest:

1. network before applying to a job - linkedin, meetups, anything

2. look into adjacent careers - infosec, devops, customer support at devtool companies. you might realise you like it

Thank you for your response!

I've applied to few help desk jobs today, seems like you don't need big diploma or such, could be a good thing too

I'll look into those and try to apply, maybe I'll have a bit of luck there

you have the choice of either going with the flow and keeping making a burden out of your life, or screwing the uncertainty and risking with what you love and believe in the most, because 32 sounds like you damn deserve it to the fullest.

Not sure how to take it.

Anyway, I feel shit but I fucking want to go there, I love it, I've probably made wrong choices and Its ok. I'll need a bit more of time I guess, but I'll get there, I'll not give up my dream.

Thank you for you response!

and thank you for staying true to yourself. as long as you see and try what's worth an effort, you'll break through anyway. so wish you success!

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