(I was that 15 year old, and then after many years of sciencing, realized that it was nothing like what I thought, and that all my best ideas were either wrong, ahead of their time, or stolen by more accomplished scientists.
The only problem i see here is, apparently this "establishment" got to you faster than you could remind yourself of what's truly important to you.
I hate when people get discouraged by other people who mostly don't care that much & are afraid... they feed on your Neugier. Don't feed them. Feed other minds alike & screw the establishment.
Besides, a lot of people interested in a wild theory greatly ups the chances someone gets funding to test the hypothesis, no?
I’ve heard a number of times that my persona in writing absolutely does not make sense to some people – until they meet me.
I think I can assure you of my non-arrogance. The wry, cynical, even flippant? note is directed at myself. My limitations and recklessness and jumping to conclusions.
If you find me, I offer you a cup of coffee. In return I’d like an equally honest reassessment.
(Full sincerity here!)
edit; Ah. Also. Another thing I can assure you of: Sometimes, afterwards, I come across my own writing and find it awful. in exactly that way. Like an annoying and arrogant 15yo had written it. Which is my greatest fear. To become that 15yo again, the person I certainly was for a decade or so. (Starting at around age 12-ish.) I knew I was annoying but I didn’t know I was arrogant. It turns out the two were related.
Anything sarcastic or playful can be perceived as insincere.
I’d be happy to read more of your thoughts—you should keep writing.
Because now you invite more negativity (on top of the original negativity and now yours) as people who didn't like their writing may now want to defend themself because they just didn't like the style and aren't part of some "growing undercurrent" who can't appreciate his brilliance because he's not "well-established nor a known expert".
Maybe they just think the writing is overwrought like when you outgrow John Scalzi's lamewad writing after briefly finding it clever in Old Man's War? (I think that's a decent place to end this because Scalzi is a very successful author.)
Not in the sense of a "moral high-ground" type of argument that is usually aimed for with this phrasing.
Rather: To be so convinced about knowing how a text must have been meant or what the author must have thought that one writes a very absolute judgmental statement, the reactor is most likely either very narrow-minded and isn't capable of dealing with thoughts that are not the first to salute ones mind, or, they reveal that in their mind their proposed "intention" or background is the truth, because they themselves would have only written a similar text with that intention or background... so either way: people being so negative (especially to strangers on the internet) about positive things, for no reason & without being asked, are just full of... themselves... (like me, i mean who am i to ramble this irrelevant stuff).
(I was about to delete it again, as i usually do after writing things down & then realizing they're stupid or not polished enough to convey the idea, but hey, i am also just a 15-year old arrogant mind that already wasted his time... so now, that you are here, i successfully also wasted yours. Your welcome!)