I already told you that I am not an American. I am not even from the Anglosphere, so the self-loathing does not evoke any emotions from me.
Furthermore, I come from a country that already tried "making peace" with Russians during the Woodrow Wilson-inspired era of neutrality in Europe. We stayed neutral, trying to maintain good relations with everyone, even with Nazi Germany and the USSR. In the end, both invaded us, murdered national elite from politicians to doctors to lawyers to scholars to everyone else who could run the country and challenge the puppet government they installed, and sent sizable part of the population in entire families to die in remote prison camps. That was followed by a Russian military occupation, which lasted until 1991. The occupation was characterized by deep economic stagnation and systematic attempts to wipe out our nation by suppressing our language and culture and by mass resettlement of Russians into our country. By the time USSR collapsed, the average wage was less than 30 dollars per month and we were on the verge of becoming a minority in our own country.
Lack of strong alliances in Europe against totalitarian dictatorships is a key reason why this happened to so many countries in Europe. Western Europe successfully defeated Nazis and restored freedom in 1945. In Eastern Europe, defeating Russians took 50 years longer.
> Russia, fighting a defensive war on its own 2000-km long border with Ukraine
Nothing says defensive war like shooting 31 ballistic missiles, worth 400 million dollars, at a peaceful European city Kyiv, hundreds of kilometers from the frontline. Results of the attack that took place earlier today: all missiles shot down, but debris fell on a kindergarten and residential buildings. Shockwaves from air-defence missiles blew out windows in apartment buildings. A power substation and a residential building caught fire. Fortunately no deaths, but 10 people injured, including a child.
And this has gone on for more than two years, day after day, while apologists like you make excuses for this behaviour and lecture others about morals.
> The world does not want to live like Americans do, either.
Indeed. I want to live the way I choose, not the way Russians want to force me, with your approval.