I can identify with some of this, but my Achilles Heel is looking forward. It’s a superpower in some cases, but often it’s tempting to live in the future at the expense of today.
When I lost my wife suddenly to cancer, I lost that ability for awhile… in survival mode, the future isn’t available to you. Only the present.
It was a horror, but also an opportunity. I chose to focus on my fitness, my son’s fitness, health, and nurturing relationships that I allowed to back burner as busy people do.
My offering is that you should be aspiring and working towards the future, but the prerequisite for tomorrow is today, and you may not have a tomorrow. So make today the best today it can be, now. Tomorrow will wait, as it does.