I’m predominantly inattentive type but focus isn’t actually my most severe symptom. That would be executive dysfunction.

I lucked into SWE being a hyperfocus of sorts, so luckily work isn’t awful if I’m not on meds, but holy cow is anything else just complete drudgery. Feels like everything is behind a wall of “startup energy” that is so hard to get through, especially without external accountability.

Rejection sensitivity is also part of it for me. I felt like I could never think fast or organized enough in the moment when talking (I would lose my train of thought in the middle of sentences), so I would get anxious coming in and try and plan, but there’s only so much you can plan for, and it just is a bad cycle to get in. Therapy and internalizing things don’t actually have that high stakes is helpful but only mostly a fix.