I came down from that trip thinking everything I had previously believed, and had been taught, was a sham. For the rest of that summer I was worried about a great number of things.
I came down from that trip thinking everything I had previously believed, and had been taught, was a sham. For the rest of that summer I was worried about a great number of things.
The effects of certain psychedelics are such that it can, if done therapeutically, "wake up" the individual to these behaviors and their ignorance of the reality around them.
This comes with it's own issues ofc, but they can become seemingly good issues to have.
It can also just make them not care about having "good" or "bad" behaviors as defined by an "external" source.
FWIW, I also think all religions are a sham but I do think something "above" exists, and yeah, that which exists allows suffering in this world, take it or leave it...
...which is one of the main atheist debating points like "but the children with cancer" and yeah I agree those children shouldn't go through that but I also acknowledge something "greater" exists, that, for better or worse, whether I like it or not, or anyone else for that matter, allows these children to exist and suffer...
...humankind does however self-inflict a lot of suffering...
Me too, except this gave me a tremendous feeling of freedom. Suddenly there were no constraints as I realised most of the barriers were invented and in my head. I was filled with awe, curiosity and love.
Such is the nature of street drugs. The odds of what you took actually being 100% pure real LSD is approximately zero, unless it was directly handed to you by a trained chemist. Much more likely an obscure cocktail of designer tryptamines.
The source is using your brain and probability.
The ease of ordering research chemicals vs the difficulty of LSD synthesis.
I mean, I had LSD from a handful of different sources, as well as psilocibin, and the essential dimension to any of the psychedelics effects I experienced were very similar, and it was only in that one instance that it led to lasting feelings of anxiety.
I do not believe it was the drug itself that messed me up. It was the insights that the drug revealed to me that were the source of my anxieties.
I worked through that stuff, and maybe in the long run I'm better off for it. It's hard to say for certain. One way or the other, life goes on.
This can definitely put some things in perspective.