Should I feel bad for being a narcissist?

so i had to get evaluated for personality disorders when i was younger bc i had to many trips to the psych ward ig. i got diagnosed with npd and i still dont know if i should feel bad about it or not. i know tht npd is not something you are born with and i keep feeling like people would like me more if i wasnt diagnosed. i feel like i should have done something to prevent it and if so, my life wouldnt be so fucked.¯\_(ツ)_/¯