Feeling(s):Feeling suicidal for last 3 months. Extreme axiety and depression
Reason(s):I have been mentally unstable for last 5 years and unhappy.I was born ugly .I am a lonely person
Not sure if this is appropriate, but there's a movie called "blind and ugly" about an ugly guy getting together with a blind woman. If anything it's a cute movie to pass the time...
https://m.imdb.com/title/tt5034090/
As for me, I'm depressed because my wife died 2 weeks ago. Treasure your loved ones while you have them.
> Treasure your loved ones while you have them.
So true, yet so easy to forget sometimes during the day to day life.
Reasons: Any hope I had of fulfilling my lifelong dream ended half a year ago. Somebody who I envied my entire life, and always tried to surpass, achieved it despite putting in far less effort than me (what I think; the reality may be different). Some people who I thought were close to me started to alienate me. That's the wrong word for it, they weren't doing anything that they thought was wrong. I realized that the next 2-8 years of my life will be terrible due to a very important decision that somebody took on my behalf. This somebody is also someone very close to me.
I am in no position to say this, but things really do get better. Even if you think there's no hope right now, you can't predict what may happen in the future. You may meet new people, understand some interesting stories. There's just too many variables for someone to confidently say that their life will be fruitless.
I am not a certified counsellor or anything but if anybody wants to talk my email(s) is in my profile.
One of the ugliest people I have ever met was also one of the most charismatic. This person looked like a troll from a fairy tale, just hideously ugly. But he could hold a room like you wouldn’t believe. And people were drawn to him. Before getting to know this person, I did not think an ugly person could have any charisma.
I have since learned that charisma is very much a skill that can be learned. You may be unable to do anything about your ugliness. But you can learn to hold a room, or learn to be someone people want to be around despite being difficult to look at.
Being charismatic and funny has greatly helped me in various aspects and opportunities in life.
reasons: holidays are always hard; violation of trust from cofounder.
actions: signed up for brightside, completed the psych review, on antidepressants with weekly therapy sessions. very easy to do and covered by my insurance. hardest part was gaining the energy to sign up.
outcome: still not great but i can begin to understand what joy could be.
Good job on starting psychotherapy and antidepressants! It's crazy how much our perception of things can change when imbalances in our brain are dealt with.
hang in there. you can do it. there are no shortcuts. in and through is the only way. you can be better, you can do better, i believe in you. don't give up, there is so much beauty to life, if you know where/how to look at it
you get to decide how u want 2 feel about it. u are in control if you allow yourself 2 be
Reasons: Entire team is being made redundant in a few months, and the job market is a miserable one at the moment. Also stressed out by some issues with my personal projects, and personal issues.
Actions: Well I'm applying for new jobs in companies I'd be interested in working in, and I'm confident that I'll find something new at some point.