Yeah it's been rough. People keep saying "it's a numbers game" who I don't think are directly connected to the issue atm due to their current employment. I appreciate your commenting and offering advice. Perhaps it is just a numbers game. Going to try to pump up the numbers and get to like 100 apps a day instead of 20.

Didn’t mean to come off rude. I do sincerely appreciate the advice. Just trying to cope with intense anxiety and stress with humor. Sry about that