Sad to say, but...however popular a meme it has been just recently - a job doing awesome stuff, that you're passionate about, has been a mere fantasy for 99+% of humanity, for 99+% of history.

I'd start by asking whether you're trying to find meaning to your life in work. "Working to live", when you've got a really rewarding life in other areas, is usually a lot more sustainable than "living to work".