I've started probably thirty blogs over the years and never made a 3rd/4th/5th post. I started one again recently, then promptly caught COVID again and was knocked down for a week, then got some bad job news and have since focused on trying to sell myself.

This latest blog feels different, though. More honest.

I guess on some level I was deluding myself with some kind of specific mission statement: "oh, I'll start a blog of poems I write" or "oh, I'll start a tech blog" or "oh, I'll start a blog with my weird code issues I've debugged" or "oh, I'll start a blog with my little DevOps snippets I liked."

This time, I was like "I'ma just write about whatever I'm freaking out about lately -- the sixth extinction, my new interest in pentesting, whatever -- and more geared at producing something that I myself would want to read: just some schmuck somewhere else in the tubes rattling into the void.

I need to get back on that.