Live Fuller Not Bigger

Whenever someone asks me how I am, I always get a bit confused on what they mean. Do they mean right now? Today? This week/month/year?

I have been working a lot on my mental health for a few years(, especially since I got my autism diagnosis and I actually became able to understand myself). Anyway, one of the big things I've discovered is that this deep, say core feeling of how I am is more important than the shallow feelings that is put on top.

(I baked today so I'm doing a bread reference) It's a bit like bread. A dense bread (core feeling) will hold the things you do and the feelings you feel, like cuddling in the morning. A airy bread (shallow feeling) won't hold the things you do and feelings as well, like partying or going on hikes and adventures.

Sure, a big airy bread will hold more than a small one, but the denser breads are closer to your core feelings. You can have an absolute blast, the best time of your life, and still feel empty and sad on the inside whenever you get time to just be.

And what would be a dense bread and airy bread is of course individual, and changes over time.