You're the unfortunate but inevitable result of our total failure to keep critical institutions honest and trustworthy. When scientists can accept money to produce fake results, or to bury any results unfavorable to corporations without consequences, and doctors can lie or take kickbacks from pharmaceutical companies without severe consequences for both the pharmaceutical company or the doctors, and politicians and news organizations can tell outright lies with impunity, this is what we get. People like you who can't see the truth even when it's staring them in the face.

Your stance that covid numbers are all lies and vaccines are a conspiracy is wrong, but it's not entirely your fault. Politicians, scientists, doctors, and media have a responsibility to continuously prove that they can and should be trusted, but they haven't been willing to do that and until they do we'll see more and more people like you who feel like they just can't trust anything anymore. At a certain point it's just self-defense to be distrustful.