An Infinite Loop in the Brain
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If something happened in the past few years I can usually answer "yes" to the question, "Do you remember that time when...?" Although I'd be hard pressed to provide any details outside of those given to me and even providing the year it happened can get sketchy. Oh, and I'm left-handed, so either there's no correlation there or I'm an anomaly. I'm with her, though, it's a blessing and a curse either way.
Interestingly, I've also found the mirrored effect with regard to emotion; even if I can recall a traumatic event that happened I never actually feel the emotions associated with it. I just sort of recall the memory as if I were an indifferent bystander watching it unfold.
At least I can remember the important stuff, like programming languages ;)
even if I can recall a traumatic event that happened I never actually feel the emotions associated with it.
As the article suggests, this is an understandable correlation. Emotionally-colored events are easier to remember. If you don't tend to have emotional color to your memories, that might make them less likely to stick around.
Honestly, I'm kind of happy to be leaning toward the forgetful side. Losing your memory can occasionally be traumatic, but compared to being constantly tortured by memories that won't go away...
Mom: "Well hello, stranger!" Me: "Come on, I just called you guys last week!" Mom: "That was 3 months ago, sweetie."
DAMN!
I read a wonderful article about Price in National Geographic sometime last year. The most important feature of the NT article, which is overlooked here, is why Price's 'personal' memory is faultless while her memory, in general, is average.
One psychologist suggested it was because Price had an intimate and unrelentingly interest in herself, as her extensive diaries suggest. So, if you enthusiastically submerge yourself in an area of study memories come.
I think there's an important lesson here: above all else love what you do.
So, as the title suggests, there's a feedback loop here.
I really feel for this woman -- this is a terrible condition. Perhaps the fact that she isn't completely crippled by PTSD is a tribute to her skill at self-analysis. It may be that she has had to become a conscious expert on herself just to be able to talk herself through the fear.
Fuck.
"Funes, The Memorious"