Perhaps poorly worded, I meant since before. During Covid I lost a lot of zest for life, felt like I went to sleep in my 20s and woke up an old man.
It felt like I went to the bathroom at a party and came back to an empty room and I had to stay and clean up. I knew I’d be done in a year or two, so it felt weird to try and find a new social group when I was on short time, but boy was the end of my PhD a slog in part due to feeling disconnected socially.