> Whereas civilians, of course, have a completely accurate view of objective reality with no illusions? It is to laugh.
No. It's just different; in some ways radically different than the niche reality of "military." .... That's the point.
Are you still in the military because you are sending clear signals that you are not in control of your own mind. Which gets into the illusion of free will and if that's real, but there's a boundedness that is tight or loose depending on the individual/group. And yours seems quite tight. As in, constricted from any thoughts outside your military programming. Scary stuff.