What you are describing is (to me) the pure essence of what it means to be an artist. There are a lot of days where I feel like software and systems engineering is more about creativity than it is math and science.

Try things, take risks, etc. The really amazing thing with software is that the cost of iteration is basically zero (+ your time). You don't even have to go buy new paints or brushes periodically. You can reset your digital canvas a billion times per day if you desire. You can even cheat and set waypoints in time that allow you to instantly teleport to any arbitrary moment with perfect recall. You can create infinite copies of your work at various stages. You can trivially blend your works together. There is no other media on earth that comes close to possessing these same attributes.