Damn, that's quite a journey. So happy to read through it. I think I wouldn't say that I haven't accomplished much because if you go through my LinkedIn and know me personally you would say I am in the top 10% in my country but (very sorry but there is but), it's all spread out. It took me years to consolidate part of that knowledge and build a portfolio that includes one of Big 3 consulting firms and I missed out on building cool stuff in my favorite programming languages and tools. Missed out learning from cool courses and much more. I shouldn't do this with myself because of clinical depression but I can't help it.