I had to quit in September due to burn out. Given how many better engineers now on market I feel there are no space for me anymore. Now burning my saving money on rent and food and going to commit suicide few months later.
There is more to life than work - and it may be hard to see that in the face of cost and running out of money.
Have you considered any adjacent or post-software gigs? I know some folks who have left to go study a particular science or end up in teaching. A good friend of mine left engineering to become a substitute and then full-time teacher.
Come on now, why do you feel like that is the plan?
Post your email in profile or something, plenty of us care for you. There's much more to life beyond a software job.
Sometimes I feel envious of people who don’t use computers at work. It would be nice to not have them be so tied to my reality.
It said that OP should take a lower caliber software job where Silicon Valley-tier engineers normally wouldn't apply because such a job would not reject them.
>Given how many better engineers now on market I feel there are no space for me anymore.
If we entertain the premise that there's an influx of superior talent hogging all the "good SV jobs" (which it's probably the hiring freeze due to market correction from massive overhiring and the looming recession, but let's go with the premise), that's precisely where there would be "space" for OP.
Those jobs absolutely exist, and re: burn out they can be pretty slow-pace to boot. (For example, defense/government work.)
For the most part during that time, pushing forward didn’t seem worth the energy at all. I’m glad I did though — I’m at least rather curious now, about how the next year will go for me.