...it costs $50 just to get 15 days of Dexedrine. But that's with the complimentary "I had no idea my insurance wouldn't cover this" discount, which is only valid the first time. Now it'll be something like $300. That's almost half of the monthly income that the government took from us because we're apparently not poor enough to need it! (The government is wrong, btw.)
> Be aware that you might be underwhelmed when compared to dexedrine, the effects are way less obvious immediatetly
For me, the main differences between being medicated and unmedicated are:
- I don't feel tired all fucking day, I can actually stay up until night time and then sleep for the night. As it should be.
- I can do creative things like art or story writing without getting bored and giving up somehow, which INVARIABLY happens with ADHD.
- I don't end up trapped in bed unable to get food when I'm hungry.
Anything that does those three things is good enough for me. As long as it doesn't have side effects (after 2 weeks dexedrine no longer has any side effects other than reduced hunger).
> having aphantasia explains why being told to "imagine this" was always something that frustrated me because I couldn't do it in the way the other person would be able to do - but I didn't know that I couldn't, and neither did they
Honestly, I've always been aware of every single ADHD symptom that I have. It's just that I didn't know where they came from, I thought they came from laziness.
I definitely don't have aphantasia to that degree or anywhere close. I can imagine entire scenes in my head, imagine being an Umbreon in a forest, walk around and feel the grass and the breeze and the sun and everything. It's just, you know, hard doing that for longer than 10 seconds before my brain gets bored.
But it makes me incredibly upset when someone assumes that I can't do something because I'm not trying hard enough. Even people who know what ADHD is, seemingly don't believe that cases can get as bad as mine. That only comes from understanding that my case of ADHD is a disability. I didn't do that before when I thought I was just lazy. Ugh.