As the Zen proverb goes, “Before enlightenment, chop wood and carry water. After enlightenment, chop wood and carry water.”
I don't think this applies. The proverb is a warning to those who haven't obtained enlightenment yet about how their daily, external life won't change once they do. The OP is saying they never obtained the promised enlightenment.
Edit: clarity
You didn't have any ? I'm still high on prolog and similar.