Hey I read your notes on Dr. Yapko's lecture on depression which led me to watch the lecture and I found it immensely helpful. Do you have any other resources you would recommend?
Ohh, and one absolutely huge website where lots of people share their experiences is the followjng: https://www.storiedmind.com/start-here/
Spend some time around there, and particularly if you're of male sex, you'll probably find it extremely useful.
It's quite some brutal and heavy reading, but then again, if it helps you understand the condition better then it's for the best I guess...