Just to be really clear, if you feel that way I'm glad you're opting out of using opensource licenses. Not everyone wants to be an opensource developer. Not all code needs to be open source to have value. There's nothing wrong with that and that makes complete sense to me.

If you ever publish anything to npm / cargo / etc, I hope you make the fact your code isn't opensource very clear. I don't want to accidentally use your code in my projects, in violation of your license.