I‘d recommend trying to lobotomize yourself with a few psychopharmaca prescribed by a psychiatrist first. What‘s the worst that could happen?
You probably haven‘t tried everything yet and you can always try to stop trying to stay alive at a later point.
You should probably call your countries crisis hotline. You can ask google how to commit suicide to get the number.
There's this conveyer-belt view of life: we are supposed to go directly from birth to school to job to kids to bigger job to death. Some people really do live that. Most people don't.
But we're expected to fit that mold, so anyone who's stepped off the belt will usually keep quiet about it. So it's easy to start believing that the only valid life is some linear path.
Still. Unemployment is stress and uncertainty. But bad job markets aren't forever. Good luck with finding a job, or managing to enjoy the interim.
Nyanpasu.