I meditate for 3-4 hours every day. I am no stranger to 10, 20, 30 days of a vipassana silent meditation experience.
Sometimes it is 2-3 hours if I am feeling cramped for time, but 3-4 hours 4-5 days a week.
But still, are you burned out? Depressed? Anxious?
I will think about being depressed, anxious, etc. it could be a real possibility.
Finally, I assume you’re male. Have you had your testosterone levels checked?
I do feel joy.
I have an interest in a lot of things and notebooks full of ideas.
I love and listen to music daily.
I am Buddhist and have a daily practice along with prostrations and reading texts, meditation, etc.