Not like I can give a good life advice, but from my life experience as a man knowledge about psychology and anthropology - you need a goal/aim to work towards. I say "experience as a man", because this is especially true for males. Everything else will fall in place little by little.

And usually when someone doesn't know what to do with their life, I suggest them to learn how to code. This platform is the best one I know how to start programming: https://www.freecodecamp.org/

Why I say this is because it's easy for anyone physically capable to start coding for free. And the job prospects are good. And consequentially, there is a high probability this will give you some meaning/goal/aim in life.

Sorry, if this was a crappy advice. Just trying to help.