― Robert Heinlein
Yes, very much agree. If I get sucked into HN and blow a big chunk of the day on stuff like this, I feel quite terrible at the end. I feel so much better when I can look back on my day and see accomplishments.
There's a funny line in "Analyse This" where Bully Crystal's character says innocently to Robert De Niro...
"What are you going to do this summer?"
And the Mafioso gangster (De Niro) replies; "About What?!"I have no duty towards life. I didn't choose to be born, did I? In fact, I vegetate waiting to have enough strength to suppress my fear of death and kill myself.
Yes, I've tried therapy in the last 15 years. Yes, I've tried exercise, meditation, journaling, workaholism, idleness, religion, philosophy, science and so on and on. I just want to be done. Every evening I pray to deities I don't believe in: "Have mercy on my suffering, do not make me wake up".
So, no: there is no duty towards anything, just the futility of existence in itself.
According to the Bardo, Veda, Platonic Phaedo and Tibetan Book of the Dead, yes you did. You just don't remember why your immortal soul chose this adventure.
> Every evening I pray to deities I don't believe in: "Have mercy on my suffering, do not make me wake up".
And every night s/he answers your prayer.
Try it with a different twist. "Have mercy on my suffering, help make me wake up and remember"
It would be nice if I could just walk out of my job for 2 weeks and get rested and refreshed and then come back like it was nothing without first having to make an appointment for said vacation and possibly take calls and deal with issues remotely the whole time, you know?